Reflection B
Year 0 Games Art and Design
Kyle Newman
Week - 8
This is the final week - and in honesty, I messed up. Today, the day I'm writing this, is the day of my hand-in. I've been awake for the past 12 hours since midnight working on things. It's 11AM and deadline is soon. I have yet to finish all of Research and Development 2.
Think / Feel / Decisions - Tell us how the above activity made you think, how the activity made you feel, and your reasons for the decisions you made.
Regret.
That's the biggest word I can say to describe my feelings of things. Unfortunately, it's the feeling I always get at this stage. Yes, this stage - it happens often.
That's the biggest word I can say to describe my feelings of things. Unfortunately, it's the feeling I always get at this stage. Yes, this stage - it happens often.
Analyse - Look at the work that has emerged and break it down to each of its contributing elements; does each element contribute to the whole? How can the work be read? What do you take from the work? What might we see as your viewer take from the work? Is the intent behind the work communicated?
I tried to make a reflection sheet from if I made it back then, but in honesty, I didn't. That was from just about 10-20 minutes ago. I don't want to lie. Even if it means failing, it's something I have to deal with. I put myself in this situation.
Evaluate - What are the works strengths and what are the works weaknesses?
Strengths and weaknesses. It's mostly weaknesses - I'm writing this because I want to be honest. I don't want to lie my way through this course, I want to be truthful and admit my mistakes. That's the best thing to do, right? I hope so. This is where the bulk of things is going to be. I'm writing this as a rant, stress relief and hopefully explain myself to you. I've yet to finish Research and Development 2, but I'm sure that after I've completed that, this will still be just as applicable.
What did I do wrong? What I always do - I leave things too late. I'm the typical type to leave things til last minute and rush things at the end. This has been a problem with me throughout high school, college and now, the beginning of university. I've been talking to support people to hopefully help with this, and rectify this terrible habit that I have.
This is what I hate about myself the most. I tell myself to work, I really do. But I don't. I even remember, not yesterday, but the day before (the 15th) I physically told myself to do work. I said to myself "You have to do the work now or it's going to be worse later". What did I do? I continued being distracted. I don't know why I don't even listen to myself - be it fear, laziness, or whatever, I don't want to do the work for some reason. I'm frustrated with myself. Disappointed. As I am sure you are with me, too.
What did I do wrong? What I always do - I leave things too late. I'm the typical type to leave things til last minute and rush things at the end. This has been a problem with me throughout high school, college and now, the beginning of university. I've been talking to support people to hopefully help with this, and rectify this terrible habit that I have.
This is what I hate about myself the most. I tell myself to work, I really do. But I don't. I even remember, not yesterday, but the day before (the 15th) I physically told myself to do work. I said to myself "You have to do the work now or it's going to be worse later". What did I do? I continued being distracted. I don't know why I don't even listen to myself - be it fear, laziness, or whatever, I don't want to do the work for some reason. I'm frustrated with myself. Disappointed. As I am sure you are with me, too.
Next Steps - What are your next steps? How do you take the strengths within the work forward and how do you exclude any weaknesses?
Not screw up. I want to fix this, I need to talk to my support officer more to get advice and try and find a solution. Currently I'm looking for a digital timetable and scheduling thing of sorts that would hopefully keep me focused. I don't know if it'll work though, but I want to try.
I'm sorry for not doing all of the work completed, but I can't miss out on Research and Development 2 either. I may finish with another rant on my RnD2 project later, as I have so many ideas for it but so, so little time. Time to get back to work, I suppose.
Sorry.
I'm sorry for not doing all of the work completed, but I can't miss out on Research and Development 2 either. I may finish with another rant on my RnD2 project later, as I have so many ideas for it but so, so little time. Time to get back to work, I suppose.
Sorry.
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